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*blows off the cobwebs*

I hate that when I finally think I have time to work on this blog, I just… don’t, LOL. I have been so crazy busy this past month, I am still having a hard time accepting that it’s almost the end of July already. Time flies when you’re overworked and sick as Hell, right? Right. LOL.

I have made a lot of changes, though, and made some steps that I am pretty proud of. I gave up my rotation at the hospital, so instead of working a 60+ hour work week, I am down to 40, like a normal human. I will still be picking up at the hospital on occasion, but after two years of working the long hours… my body is grateful for the break. It’s been two, almost three weeks, and I have noticed an immense difference in how I feel overall. I have more energy, I am not so tired and irritable all of the time, I actually have an appetite, and my skin is getting better. Which… is a huge fucking plus, because cystic acne is pretty much the worst. I also have some actual time in the evenings, and I can have dinner at a decent hour. Which… I didn’t really realize how much that affected me and my sleep.

Oh, oh! And the best thing about it all – I can actually go to sleep! I am sleeping for 9 hours a night, without waking up, without the need for sleep aids or Ativan. It’s so amazing. I don’t think I have slept this well since before I was pregnant. I am feeling pretty awesome in the mornings. It’s great. 🙂

I got my nails done this past Saturday. I let my esthetician play with some new chromes that she got, and I think it turned out pretty bad ass. It’s over a black base (of course).

She told me that she’s going to be getting in some more colours soon that we can play with. I’m pretty excited.

So, I’m working on some music reviews and such that I will hopefully finish up and post this week. One is a review of the new Chelsea Grin album that just dropped this past Friday… I’m also looking at maybe the new Deathless Legacy and Carach Angren discs. We’ll see how good it goes. I’m also working on an essay/open letter piece that has been a definite challenge for me. It’s a tough one, brings up a lot of old wounds and it’s been like having a re-excision. Should be interesting. All for the sake of self-love and healing trauma, right? Right. 🙂

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Merry Newtonmas everyone! 🙂

Normally, I would post everything that I received as presents, but since I am pulling a 12.5 hour shift today, that will have to wait until tomorrow. LOL. Hooray for triple time though, right? LOL. To be honest, I would rather be in bed, but scheduling caught me at a weak moment. Right now I’m covering patient registration, and I am so bored, I think my head might roll off. To prevent that from happening, I figured I would make a small post and let everyone know what I’ve been up to.

I was afraid we were going to have a brown Newtonmas this year, as we almost did last year and then the crazy summer that we had with the fires and all, but last week, it was like BAM. This is what I woke up to:

Needless to say, I was colossally overjoyed. I love snow. The temperature has been fluctuating between -14°C and -27°C, so it’s decently cold and even colder with the wind chill, so it’s been delightful. Almost feels like winter from when I was a child, but back then it used to dip down to almost -40°C, which I guess is a thing of the past now (unless I move to the Yukon Territory – which I plan to – but that plan has been put on hold until I can find somewhere that I can take classes to become familiar the Inuksuk languages). It’s made sleep a lot nicer. I only get about an average of 6 hours of sleep a night, which is usually enough but it’s not sleep of the best quality. With the temperature being what it is, I fall asleep fast and I sleep really deep, which has been a boost for my productivity and I feel great instead of groggy. I wish it was winter all the time.

Something that has ground my gears a bit… one of my goals for the new year is to stand up to people that Mother shame me. I’m not talking about those ridiculous groups on Facebook that bully women about breast feeding, because I stopped with those groups after Emilie became a toddler, but I’m talking about people that make snide comments as if I’m not standing right there. Like the other night… a bunch of us girls were sitting around the nursing station during a quiet period, talking about who got roped into working Christmas. I said that I had, as well as a couple of the nurses who were sitting there. One of them, who I will call DB, looked at me pointedly and said “I’m not working Christmas, because I am dedicated to my kids.”

So… normally I would let that kind of comment slide. I’m not into in-fighting with co-workers. I’m not into office drama or any of that nonsense because I come to do my job and get my pay check and go home. I have never felt “part of the team,” despite my efforts, so I don’t try to engage that much anymore. Most of the nurses I work with though, I am on friendly terms with. DB though… I have never liked. She has a very poor attitude, tries to talk over others, brags about her family/husband/material things, and is an overall know-it-all. Is she a good nurse? I have no idea. If she spent the amount of time taking care of patients as she does running her mouth, she could be great. She’s very condescending, and always makes sure to talk to me like I am the most moronic individual on the planet. My solution is usually just to avoid her as much as possible, and if she tries to start running her mouth at me, I ignore her and go on with my work. It has worked for me thus far.

It’s kind of hard for me, though, because even though that I feel that the comment was directed at me, we were all talking in a group and I can’t say with 100% certainty that it was directed at me. It still pissed me off, and I wish I had called her on it. But with how upset it made me, I’m kind of glad that I didn’t because I might have lost my temper at her and that professional boundary cannot be crossed no matter what. But for the new year… I want to learn how to call these kind of comments out in a respectful manner that won’t get me hauled into my boss’s office and create some kind of ire between myself and the nurses that I am on good terms with.

Something to think about anyway.

I hope everyone has a good Christmas… I will probably blog again in a couple of days to show off my presents and what not. 🙂

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My entire life at the moment. Who needs a life, right? LOL.

The weather has taken such a cold turn, and I think the end of daylight savings time only encouraged it. I woke up this morning to -18°C (-0.4°F) and it was so cold in my room that I couldn’t feel my feet and I had to double check to make sure my Leviathan didn’t freeze during the night. After the summer that I had with all of the fire and the nonsense of the evacuation, I am glad that the winter is here, but it was like it happened almost overnight and I didn’t really have time to prepare. Thankfully the aquatic store was open today… I got a little heater for his tank that I’m going to put in when I clean it later tonight. Poor little dear. I worry about him.

Speaking of Bettas… I’m thinking about getting another one. I don’t know how Levi will feel about it, he’ll probably be right pissed off, but I enjoy having him so much. Perhaps if I could find a female, he might not be so affronted. We’ll see. It depends on what the pet store has… Levi’s batch looked very stressed out (as I discovered with Levi – his face was white when I bought him – now it’s a beautiful black/purple). They were in clean containers, though… the Bettas at the aquatic store are always in such filthy water. You have to take a really good look just to see their colouring/what kind of tail they have. Pisses me off, to be honest. I get very angry when I go in there.

But I digress.

I recently got my eyebrows microbladed, and I’m working on a post about my experience, but I’m just waiting for the scabs to fall off so that I can do an after picture. So look forward to that, I guess? I don’t know. LOL. I don’t really feel at this point that anyone reads this stupid blog (not that that is a big deal – I keep it for myself), so saying that feels silly, but there you go. LOL.

Anyway. Back to work.

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