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    Life has been crazy. I spent the majority of February working 12 hour shifts, both at the clinic and in the hospital, so of course I got sick. The latter half of February up until about three days ago I have just been an absolute mess. Apparently there has been a pretty nasty flu going around, but it didn’t feel like an influenza, so who knows. Aside from being ill in that regard, my health has been a bit in the toilet regardless. I was diagnosed two weeks ago with hypertension. Which caught me off guard because I didn’t feel any different than I normally do, but I guess that’s why they call it the silent killer, right? You don’t feel bad until it’s gone bad and turned into cardiac failure or arrest.

    Today is my first actual day on my medication. My doctor wanted an additional two weeks of pressure readings before she started me on anything. So far so good, I guess. The pharmacist said I might feel dizzy initially, but I haven’t yet, so that’s good. I have to get a bunch of blood work done and have an ECG done as well. Depending on the results of those, the doctor said she is going to send me for an echocardiogram, which I really hope I don’t have to do that. The tech that does them here isn’t a very pleasant guy and travelling is a bit out of the question.

    Needless to say, I have been served, and I really have no one to blame for my health but myself. I’ve been making goals for years regarding my health, but I don’t stick to them and continue eating like crap and this is what happens. I keep making attempts to go plant-based, and I either don’t go through with it or I fail because I let myself be weak and get sucked in by the carnivores around me.

    No more. I’m in the process of making a game plan of what I’m going to do… the big component of that is getting off of my fat ass and moving around. Last night I fell into my pattern of watching Netflix in bed and I got so pissed at myself that I got up and cleaned the downstairs bathroom for some movement. Still too snowy and icy to go out and walk around outside, but with things on the upswing, I will probably be able to do it soon. Mom is always wanting to go out and walk, so I think I can convince her to join me. Cleaning in the meantime will be a good substitute because I actually did break out a little bit of a sweat. I also have a truckload of exercise videos to use… once I have the last bit of things put away and organized in my new room, I should have enough room to exercise there too.

    It’s going to be an ongoing thing. My doctor told me not to get sucked into the quick weight loss, fad diet nonsense… she said sustainable lifestyle changes will be key. Which I believe, but I just need to kick my own ass and keep myself accountable.

    I’ve had this song stuck in my head for the last week or so. It’s my new jam, so enjoy:

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    Happy belated 2019 everyone!

    I kind of wanted to do a little “2018 in review” post, and I must admit… I’ve been a little bit tardy with it. Things have been a bit crazy the last couple of months, with work and being ill (I got some kind of viral gastroenteritis over the holidays – not fun at all lemme tell you), but things have settled a bit now. So… on with it, I guess?

    Favourite Album(s) of 2018:
    Carnifex’s Bury Me In Blasphemy. It’s was a short little EP of only fours songs, but my goodness… who knew a death metal cover of “Head Like A Hole” by Nine Inch Nails was something that I never knew that I needed? Also, they finally did a studio version of their cover of “The Heretic Anthem” by Slipknot, and holy Hera… much better than I thought it was going to be. This band never fails to impress, and this little diddly has wet my appetite for their new full-length album, which is apparently coming out in 2019. Bravo, gentleman, bravo.

    Behemoth’s I Loved Your At Your Darkest. The only way to sum up this album, is to state simply that it is an absolute fucking masterpiece. Behemoth killed it with their last album, 2014’s The Satanist, and it’s like they took everything incredible about that album and refined it for this one. It’s dark, it’s technical, it’s full of blasphemous debauchery and I loved ever second of it. Behemoth slayed the fuck out of this one. My only regret is that I missed them when they played in Vancouver, because this piece of art would be life altering to experience live.

    Dimmu Borgir’s Eonian. I’ve pretty much distanced myself from all Dimmu Borgir fans except for like… 3, because I can’t handle the constant barrage of hate that this band’s new material gets. It happened for the last album, it doubled for this one, and I don’t get it. People seem to just want them to make the same album over again, and that’s just (let’s face it) really fucking boring. I love that these guys change things up and add different elements to their sound. One of my favourite songs on this album, “Council of Wolves and Snakes,” had these shamanistic elements that were just… incredible, and added so much to the song. I had to wait eight years for this album, and I have to say it was well worth the wait. The entire concept of this album, the art… it’s exceptional. Though the first single, Interdimensional Summit, had me a little skeptical because of how… happy… it sounded, it works with the rest of the album because it all flows together. The concept of time travel, going beyond the veil, and so on, is really cool. If Dimmu Borgir decides to keep going in this direction, I’m down for the ride, because this album kicks ass.

    Favourite Movie of 2018:
    Sony’s Venom. This is an unpopular movie among people I know, but honestly… I couldn’t care less. I loved this movie. Tom Hardy did a fabulous job as Eddie Brock, and I enjoyed his portrayal. I am not a big comic book elitist, or whatever, so when these movies go off on their own little tangent with story lines… I really don’t care (except for how Galactus was portrayed in that awful Fantastic 4/Silver Surfer movie – that still pisses me off). Nine times out of ten, I’m just happy that they’re making a movie about something I like. I read the comics when I was small (when I could get them) and I watched the cartoons, and Venom has always been one of my favourites. The big point of contention I hear is that Spiderman was an essential element of the Venom origin story and he’s missing from this movie. To that I say… so? They make it work, and for me, it worked really well. I am looking forward to the sequel.

    Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them: The Crimes of Grindelwald. This is an obvious pick for me. I’ve been a giant Harry Potter fiend since the age of 12, I have read the books so many times that my copies have essentially begun to disintegrate. When they announced this series a few years ago, I was really excited, and the first movie did not disappoint. There was a lot of controversy when the trailer for this installment came out, because of Johnny Depp, and the allegations his ex-wife Amber Heard made against him. I remember a lot of people were calling for Grindelwald to be recast, and JK Rowling said ‘no.’ To be honest… to keep it 100… I am glad they didn’t recast him, because no one else could have done this role. No one else could have played Grindelwald, and have done it so well. He is the epitome of the perfect villain and I just… I can’t explain it. This movie took me on such an emotional roller coaster, and the scene in which Grindelwald puts that spell into the ground at their meeting and tries to destroy Paris… I don’t think I took a breath that whole time. Maybe it’s just me over analyzing, perhaps, but I couldn’t help but notice a lot of common themes between this movie, and the current political/social climate. That’s a topic for another blog post, however. All you need to know… this movie is awesome. Johnny Depp is awesome.

    Favourite Show of 2018:
    Netflix’s Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, hands down. I saw the trailer for this, I nearly peed my skirt. Of course, then the hoo-haw with The Satanic Temple happened, and a lot of my fellow witches in the communities I’m in were upset because it’s an inaccurate representation of the Craft. I devoured this entire series. The whole Satanic witch, Book of the Beast, Church of Night, cannibalism aspect of it, is it accurate? Of course not. Is it awesome? Hell yes. I can see why people got upset, but at the same time… it’s fiction. Obvious fiction. The series was dark, and twisted, and full of great characters. Such a contrast to the series/comics that I grew up watching, and I must say that preferred this. Not to give too much away, but Harvey pissed me off royally. Sabrina loves you, dumbass! Netflix has me waiting until April to see the next, and I’m drumming my little black fingernails impatiently.

    I decided not to include books in this post. Why? Nothing I read last year really wow’d me. Which is a shame, but I did re-read a lot of old favourites, like The Witches by Roald Dahl, and the Black Bird manga series by Kanoko Sakurakoji. We’ll have to see what I discover this year, as I now have more time to read and another book lover to share time with.

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    #fannibal For Life

    Look what I got~! Finally, after years of who-hawing and contemplating, this beauty is mine:

    It took four, almost five hours, to complete and I was so proud of myself because I sat through the entire thing and didn’t gripe and I only needed a break once when my bottom cramped up (Brian’s chair has literally no padding on it – a fact that he himself admits). Thankfully, my wonderful boyfriend was there for company and he let me squeeze his hand because towards the end it was getting kind of dicey. Here was the finished product:

    It’s a beauty, non? It is on the side of my left thigh. The healing journey was pretty decent, aside from my little ginger loving to lean on me. Now her favorite thing to do is say “Mom, your leg still hurt!?” and poke me with her little dagger nails.

    I hope everyone had a lovely Hallowe’en. I went trick-or-treating with my little ginger, my boyfriend, his little ginger, and his ex-wife and her girlfriend. It was a lot of fun, considering the temperature was less than ideal and I wore the wrong sweater. After we bombed around the neighborhood, we went to the bonfire/fireworks party at the fire hall. Emilie enjoyed it, as she got to hang out with all of her little friends from school and they didn’t have a cap on how much hot chocolate we could have, which = bonus.

    My costume was a bust because my rosacea decided to make an appearance, but there is always next year. Maybe I can score some oral metronidazole as well as topical, so I can bomb it off of my face. I’m planning to save my pennies and score a bloody Wendigo mask from Immortal Masks (check it out here) and rock it next year. Terrify the townsfolk and all of that jazz. I’m so excited. 🙂

    Keeping busy, keeping busy. Today is the first day that it’s been really cold outside (it was -9°C/15.8°F) outside my house this morning, and it just feels like I should be inside with a giant mug of espresso and hot chocolate and wrapped up in my Kylo Ren and Jason Voorhees blankets. Two more hours of work… and I think that that is what I am going to go and do.