Poem – Serendipity Smiles

I.
I remember the day we met.
Something had kept me awake that day.
A feeling deep underneath my skin,
Had stayed my rest and I know in
Reflection that it was Serendipity
Smiling and welcoming me to the
First day of the rest of my life.

You stood to the side,
Off the balcony in the grass.
The blue sky was in your eyes,
The sun’s fire in our smile and
I remember that my heart faltered,
And I couldn’t breathe.
I remember thinking about
How perfect you were and how
I could’ve gotten lost in the depths
Of your radiance.
You were exuberant and contagious
And I felt for the first time in my
Meaningless existence something
Warm spread through me.
Attraction, unbridled passion, connection.
Something a lot like Love.

II.
The first time we went for coffee alone
I was absolutely terrified.
From the top of my dyed black head
To the tips of my painted black toes,
I was consumed by panic.
Fear of you, fear of me, fear of things
You made me feel when he couldn’t even come close.
I remember thinking that all I wanted to do
Was reach across the table and
Take your hand in mine.
I wanted to know the texture of your skin and
Memorize the ridges of scar tissue on
Your fingers and just be closer to you.
I was nervous and I think you were too.
Those quiet hours we spent together huddled
At that corner table sipping coffee too weak
To be considered coffee were
The best of my life.
You told me your secrets and I told you mine
And I felt that warmth reach inside me
And wrap around truths that I
Wasn’t yet ready to face.

You made me face them.
You served me with a reality check that I needed and
Because of that I had a new backbone
And the strength to leave when things with
Him came fo their inevitable messy end.
But I was stripped of my foundation,
My very outside skin and everything
I had worked for and I was everywhere and
Nowhere because I had nothing to hold on to.
You saved me.
With the blue sky in your eyes and the
Sun’s fire in your smile, you saved me.
You stanched my bleeding and cleaned
The wounds and I was in complete awe of you.
You healed me with your kiss.
You repaired the fissures in my heart and in
My soul with your sweet whispers and
The touch of your hand.
I couldn’t breathe and I couldn’t see
Because I was so overwhelmed and the
Something like Love blossomed
Inside of me into a beautiful flower,
Crystallized and immortalized,
And untouchable.
Fucking unbreakable.

III.
And I feel it.
It’s burrowed into the very marrow of my bones.
It moves me to tears and I feel it.
Love.
I fucking love you.

Something had kept me awake that day.
A feeling deep underneath my skin,
Had stayed my rest and I know in
Reflection that it was Serendipity
Smiling and welcoming me to the
First day of the rest of my life.

© Rachel Venos, 2012.