Tuesday, July 4, 2023
Moved.
I decided on a new start. It’s still a mess over there, but if you want to keep following me, please head over to my new home:
Lilith Immaculate
Thank you. <3
Tuesday, June 6, 2023
007.
Little earworm for everyone.
Lately, my life has been dominated by work and by doctor appointments. Seems to be never ending. Being a “geriatric” pregnancy (I hate that term), I get that I need to be monitored more closely, but there is a point where it crosses over into ridiculousness.
It is worth it though, because I did get to feel my baby kick today. It wasn’t as strong as I remember my daughter’s being, but considering that baby is still only 14 weeks, baby gets an A+ for effort. There’s no mistaking that that is what it was though, because I don’t think my stomach muscles have learned tap dance.
Work is going to be slow this week, because my boss is on the first of her two holidays this week (second is in August). It’s nice, because it’s giving me more energy to come up with my game plan for getting my house under control. Need to dust, vacuum, get things moved around so I can start airing out the spare room to get baby’s room started. The crib should be arriving on the 13th, which will be nice. I’ve promised my Charlie that he gets the honor of putting it together, because if I did it, it might catch fire and blow up. I’m really excited to get things started. In about six weeks, I get to find out if I’m having a boy or a girl, so I can start buying clothes and the crib bedding, nursery decorations, etc. I’m an eager beaver, so I am going to ask my boss if I can take Friday off to get a head start.
I have a feeling that I’m going to have a boy. My intuition is screaming at me that it’s a boy. Everyone else I talk to seems to think that it’s a boy too. Charlie is convinced. He’s quick to always follow it with “I don’t care either way,” but he’s convinced. Though my intuition is screaming that it’s a boy, I had the same feelings last time, and I ended up with my little girl. So who knows. There’s apparently a blood test I can take now that will tell me the gender, but LifeLabs wanted something like $795 for it and having to fork over that kind of money, or wait a few more weeks… I’ll wait, thanks. I can spend that money on my baby or my daughter.
I guess that’s all I have for now. Like I said… work, baby stuff. I should have something more interesting next time. I’m working on my first spellwork posts and some other things. I am also debating on renewing my hosting for this domain, or moving providers. I’ve given myself until the end of the month to decide, because my hosting for this comes up in August.
Monday, May 1, 2023
006.
I finally had my first ultrasound done last week. The pictures that the sonographer took weren’t the best, because you can’t really see anything compared to how baby appeared on the ultrasound screen, but what can you do. LOL. I got to see baby move their little fingers, and I got to watch their heart beat. Apparently their heartbeat is really strong, which made me feel a lot better. Being… older, I’m more high risk and I was so afraid that baby wouldn’t be viable. I was so happy that that fear was squashed.
It’s been a bit of a journey so far, let me tell you. I don’t get morning sickness where I vomit or anything like that, but I’ve been getting headaches, and these random episodes of vertigo and just general “yuck” that seem to be triggered by certain smells. Cooking meat, eggs, and anything that has a very oily smell seem to be the worst so far. I’m a bit turned off of coffee and of cold brew, which is a bit depressing. I’ve started drinking tea, so that I don’t go into caffeine withdrawal, but I have yet to find a tea that doesn’t make me thirstier.
Apparently, everything that I’m experiencing is completely normal. My first pregnancy with my daughter, I didn’t experience any symptoms or anything with her, and I attribute that to the fact that I was working full-time graveyard shifts, running the warehouse at Walmart, slamming pallets, unloading trucks, etc. If I did experience any symptoms, they could be explained away by the work I was doing. Fatigue, all of it. But I’m getting to the point now where I’m feeling okay most of the time. I get a craving here or there, but nothing too major. I’m already getting a little pooch belly, which is both cute and annoying, because I have to take care with my pants now.
Other than that… nothing too much is going on right now. Just work, and trying to clean my house. Still working on some content for this little joint, but my laptop at home is being a prick. I might have to buy a new laptop or a small desktop to get things moving, which I am going to shop around for. Trying to make due with my work computer, but I never have enough time. Anyhow. That’s all for me right now. Updates will be coming. Not that anyone cares, or even reads this for that matter, but it gives me something to work towards.
Wednesday, March 22, 2023
004.
My latest obsession is Ashnikko:
My daughter is just as smitten as I am. I am hopefully going to be getting us tickets to see her when she is playing in Vancouver in October, fingers crossed.
I had a bit of a holiday last week. I did absolutely nothing, and it was just as magical as I thought it could be. It was just nice to catch up on some rest. If the snow hadn’t still been up to my armpits, and cold enough to freeze the jewelry in my ears and face, I would have spent the majority of my time outside. I miss walking through the woods, taking in the air and looking at mushrooms. One of my goals this year is to get outside more when I can, and to be better at monitoring myself for burn-out. Thankfully, this time my holiday coincided with my boss’s emergency rotation, so I only lost administrative time and not any patient in-clinic time. If I can work it out like that everytime, that would be amazing.
So many big projects I am wanting to start around the house this year. Hoping to have my house in a beautiful, decluttered and deep-cleaned state by the end of the summer. If anything, I want to get the floors done upstairs at least. As soon as the snow melts. -_-
I’m going to try my hand at making my own incense blends tonight. I will post photos and the results. It’s going to be a blend from the Dark Goddess Collective, and once I get more comfortable with it, I’m going to try my hand at making my own.
Short post today. I’m going to try my best to have the book review I’ve been working on posted sometime this week.
Wednesday, March 1, 2023
003.
I celebrated my 35th birthday this past Monday, which was a bit surreal. My Charlie took me out to dinner at Boston Pizza after I got off work, which was lovely. I had a chicken carbonara pizza, which was probably the best thing I’ve ever eaten. I am debating on whether to go back tomorrow and get another, albeit larger, one. It was a lovely evening that ended rather messily, unfortunately, because Charlie’s truck ended up getting stuck at the bottom of my driveway. Trying to dig out a giant Ford in the dark, with subpar footwear, all while my dad is throwing off the most smothering anxious energy… not how I would have chosen to end my night, but I guess it is what it is. At least there was pizza, LOL.
It feels weird being 35. I don’t feel 35. Which maybe is good; what is it supposed to feel like? My boss said to me this morning not to be self-conscious of my age, because I don’t look a day over 26. It was a little bit of an “awwww!” moment for me. Definitely made me feel a bit better.
Right now, I am debating on whether or not I should hand my resignation in to the hospital. With how stressful the last few years have been, it seems like the right move to make, because it would be one less thing for me to stress about. I haven’t worked much there since the pandemic started, mostly because I was too tired doing both my office job and then the hospital, but also because I was sick and tired of the mixed messages, I was getting regarding the coronavirus policies. More often than not, it was a “policy for thee, not for me” kind of deal and it was aggravating. My hang up is that my college training was for the hospital. I trained as a health unit coordinator. It feels like I’m not being true to my training if I give it up. I’ve taken a couple of shifts this month and I’m thinking of delaying my decision until after that block is over. I need the money, but the stress I must put myself under to get there… is the money really worth the headache?
One of the things that I’ve had to consider, working in the medical field in a system that is on the verge of collapse, is what I would do if my boss decided to leave the community and close the practice. I’ve had to consider it once before, and my plan at that time was to apply for a hospital job in another community (Kamloops was the one I settled on because RIH is always screaming for staff, and I figured I had a good shot) and relocate. Now that relocation is off the table, as my mom has passed and I need to take care of my dad, I have had to change those plans. I am already going for my transcription certification, but as another back up avenue, I have been looking at getting into the funeral business and becoming an embalmer. I have contacts at our local funeral home who adore me, so I don’t think getting an apprenticeship would be hard for me to do. It’s a two-year program, and I can get paid to work while I’m learned.
With the collapse of the BC medical system impending, I need to have back up plans. I need to register and order my books for my transcription courses. My Charlie said he’d help me with the costs. He’s such a dear, I am such a lucky girl. I’ve never had a partner that wants so much for me to succeed and wants to actually help me achieve those goals. It’s an odd thing, because my past partners just… weren’t like that, so it’s odd. A good kind of odd, though.
Right now, I’m working on a book review that I will hopefully be posting by the end of the weekend, if not early next week. I’m really feeling the creativity lately, which is a decent change. I blame the moon and my new meds.
